Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Sad News

I mentioned just a few posts ago that I was about 10 weeks pregnant.  We found out on Monday that our little one went to be with the Lord.  This is the email I shared with my friends and the story of just how sweet and gentle God is in the midst of our pain:

Hey Friends,
Today I went in for my 10 week appointment and found out that our baby
went home to be with the Lord.  

I was driving on my way to the doctor and praying for our baby saying, "Lord,
help this little one to be strong and healthy and I pray that he will
come to know you at an early age."  I felt God respond almost audibly,
"He is strong and healthy and he knows me right now because he's with
me" and I told God, "what I meant was that he would be strong and
healthy in my womb and come to know you in a few years!"  But when
doctor confirmed that the baby didn't have a heartbeat I was totally at
peace.  

Phil 4:7 says "And the peace of God, which transcends all
understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
 Today it would have been super easy to get angry, frustrated and
resentful, but it was God's peace that was the fortress around my mind
and heart, keeping me from going there.  It's a peace that is totally
not understandable unless it is from the Lord.  I tell you this not to
bring any attention to the way I handled the situation, but to show you
just how good God is and the peace that he offers you through your
hardest times.  God was so tender and so gracious to me to take the
time to prepare me for the doctor's news and to ensure me that my baby
was healthy, strong and in good hands... the best hands!   I think
heaven will be just that much sweeter now knowing that Kyle and I will
get to meet our little #2 too.  

Just thought you'd want to know.

42 comments:

Valerie said...

I love your blog and your craftiness, but I wanted to delurk to tell you that I will keep you in my prayers. I am sorry for your loss, but so inspired my your faith. Hang in there.

n i l e e y said...

* hugs *

Brandy said...

We'll be praying for you guys as you grieve. Gos is such a God of comfort and peace--it's amazing He was giving you peace before you even knew you needed it.

Kat said...

I am so sorry for your loss but truly amazed and awed by your incredible faith. May the Lord bless you and comfort you and your family.

homemaker Hobbies said...

In my prayers and thoughts:)

shana said...

I'm so sorry!
Shana in minnesota

Catherine said...

Praise God for your peace over this loss. I pray He will continue to bless you as only He can.

Sherri said...

I'm praying for you. Your peace from God is amazing.

Parker Family said...

It is amazing how he can give such peace to you when you need it or in your case before you knew you needed it! God bless your family and many prayers!

Rachel said...

I've never commented here before, but I wanted you to know that you are in my prayers. Your faith is inspiring and I hope it reaches all those around you. May God bring comfort to you.

3 o'clock walk said...

You and your little one are in my prayers. I admire how you are very accepting of the Lords decision. I know it takes a lot of strength to be in your position but an even stronger woman to accept what has happened. My thoughts are with you. Be strong. Stay strong. Everything happens for a reason. "To everything there is a season."

The Harris Family said...

I am very sorry for your lost. I am sure it has to be very hard. Thank you for sharing your faith, it is really inspiring.

sarah m said...

I am so sorry for your loss. Your words are beautiful though, and it's such a testimony to see you place your faith in God, even in difficult times. May you continue to find comfort in His arms!

Darlene said...

lifting you up in prayer right now. I am so sorry for your loss. What God spoke to your heart is beautiful.

Audra MacK said...

Delurking as well. Sorry to hear your sad news but so very grateful for your peace. My prayers are with you.

Anne said...

How heartbreaking!! I'm so sorry for your loss!

Happy Nester said...

I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you.

Adam and Natalie said...

Oh Sarah, I'm so sorry to hear that. My heart breaks for you guys. I was just thinking about your new little one this morning. Praying for you guys.

Stephanie said...

I am so sorry to hear that. :( I have been there too and I know how hard it is. Prayers for you and your family and love what you said about Heaven being that much sweeter. It's so true. :)

PaisleyJade said...

So sorry for your loss! I have also lost two little ones (one at 10 weeks and one at 18 weeks) and God is amazing how He comforts us... may he do the same to you.

Rachel@oneprettything.com said...

I am so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my thoughts. Extra hugs.

Ginny said...

I am so sorry for your loss! Please take care of yourself.

Sare said...

I've been subscribing to your blog for a little while not (i am just anon-commenting kinda person, I guess...sorry bout that).

I am so sorry for your loss, but what amazing strength you have, to be that in-tune with the Lord's will, and to already have that peace. You are a strong woman.

happy mama said...

You have my prayers.

Jae said...

I love your blog. I have been reading for a while. I felt like I should say something today. I am so sorry to hear of your loss. At the same time, it is great to know that you are accepting of the Lord's decisions and have such a peace. The Lord gives and He takes away, but we must always trust His mighty hand and His perfect plan for our lives. He is the Great Physician and Ultimate Healer and He will heal your pain. Keep trusting in Him...

Le Bec said...

I'm incredibly sorry for your loss :(

Sonia said...

I am so sorry for your loss. (((hugs)))

Lorie said...

I hope that you continue to have peace at this time.

*hugs*

Robyn said...

No words...just sending prayers friend!
Hugs.

Kiwi The Kreator said...

so sorry for the hurt you may feel...i'm glad God was with you in your time of need!

Abbey said...

I am so very sorry. There are, of course, no words to make it better, but please know that friends and strangers alike are praying for you and your family.

My husband and I cannot have kids, which was incredibly hard to deal with initially, but almost having one and then losing it is worse.

Again, I am so sorry...

Heather - CROQZine.com - Dollarstorecrafts.com said...

Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that.

Kre8ive Life said...

Hi, This is the first time I have visted your sight and I am so sorry to hear your sad news. I pray God continues to love on you like never before. You are an inspiration both in creativity and faith. blessings

Karin said...

I'mm so sorry for your loss, Sarah. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Erna said...

Our God can be so gentle. I am sorry to hear of your loss. I don't comment often due to time restrictions on the computer. I have experienced a similar loss twice so I know that hearts and hands can feel quite empty during these times. Hugs to you.

Anna said...

I, too, have been reading your blog but have never commented until now.....so glad you are able to feel God's presence through this heartache.

Sarah said...

Thank you all for the total outpouring of love and support! I've been so blessed by your comments!! It means so so much to me that you all would take the time to write.

Jennie said...

You are in my prayers. May the peace that surpassed all understanding not leave your side!

Lizzie D said...

Am so sorry for your loss, your blog is very inspiring to me as have just started this blogging lark and I love your openess about your faith. Will be praying for you as you mourn your loss, God works in very amazing ways sometimes. God bless x

M&M Kanet said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I am so glad that you can feel peace through this trial. That is neat that you had that experience beforehand to prepare you for the sad news.
We've never met, but I check in here and there for your cute crafts.
Peace be with you and your family.

Randi said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your story is beautiful ... I love that God spoke so clearly to you and began to prepare you for what was to come. Wishing you much peace in the days ahead.

KS said...

I know what you have gone through and feel for you. You have such a great outlook. I